Yep, prolly a mixure. While I don't Spar or study Martial Arts techniques anymore I still drill the basics, so hopefully I'm still in with a chance if the shit happens. Size, like every other Lifter I could never be too big, UNTIL I met Glenn Lazarus and saw how ridiculously big (naturally) he is. That made me a bit self conscious of getting too big. Although I still love dwarfing hot little Bishes.
I also love the hormonal response lifting gives. I am addicted to the feeling weight or pressure on the Body. I love and marvel at the bio mechanics of the human body.
I'm now going a bit more cardio focused so doing more Hill Sprints hopefully - fucken love that.
It's an addiction, but a glorious addiction.