Ah fine I wanna tell my story. Sorry if it ends up a crash and burn wankfest.
I was never a thin kid, but I made myself that way. Years of running and 'eating healthy', aka nothing, left me looking spiderish compared to my friends.
At the beginning of last year a good friend of mine came out of a long term relationship and we started seeing each other. It was a big thing for me, I'd spent ridiculous amounts of time with her over the years and we were both loners in high school. Another friend who always thought I was too skinny mentioned bulking up as a means to impress her, and having been kicked out of my band I took up the suggestion.
After about a month things got sour though. My ex had severe bipolar and her moods were sporadic - one day she could be driving a new friend to Sydney and the next she could lock herself in her room and refuse to come out. Eventually after she dogged out of a family dinner I drove over to her house and caught her with another guy. I said at the door he had 30 minutes to leave before I came back. After 15 I got a few messages from him threatening me. I accepted them and began walking back to the house to kick his ass before my ex rang me and begged me not to come back. I didn't.
And thats where it started. I felt disgusted by the fact that someone had threatened me, and I wanted to make sure it never happened again. If they did, I'd make sure they were sorry.
I ditched the arm work and focused on strength - I wanted to hit back hard. I was broke and couldn't afford the food let alone proper equipment but I kept going. When 3L of milk wasnt packing on weight fast enough I started going to mcdonalds around x4-5 a week, thats when it started getting out of hand.
Of late things have changed. Uni brought a lot of new friends, 3 jobs, a girlfriend and the realization that my ex didn't deserve to be a big part of my life. I listened to my girlfriend and family who told me I was getting too bulky and I've started cutting back, eating a more normal, protein rich diet.
These days weightlifting gives me something to do which is physical (a break from law, the other big part of my life). I'm influenced by guys like wendler and kroc, generally strong dudes who manage long hours and a family on top of lifting, but I know that staying away from drugs will stop me getting as unhealthy as they are.
I'd like to lean up some more before getting to a slow 100kg lean (10-12% bodyfat) by the end of uni, and with a total around 250/180/300. After that I'll go beyond, and also build a home gym exactly like Rips (god living with my parents sucks
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