BoyFromAus
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I'd like to request the admin does not close this thread.
I'm not trying to have a cry on this thread. It is a psychological issue i can't talk to anyone else about. They wont understand.
Over the last 18 months or so, I've been eating more than i ever could (close to 4000 cals) and focusing on lifting big. Doing PTC's beginner program... strength has gone up, but in size, i've only gained 3kg. Last couple of months I just plateau'd on strength and size. I feel horrible if I eat more calories; just find it hard to work as i get lot of stomach pain.
Meanwhile the maori dude in my gym seems to be doing a similar program and based on what he's told me, doesn't eat as much as me.. he's my height (5'9), slightly thicker bone structure, yet he's gained close to 10kg in the last year. I'd say it looks mostly lean (the gains).
That is just one scenario that has really made me upset. I know someone who can get me steroids. I'm really considering walking that path. The only two things stopping me is, 1. needles are not my friend 2. wanting to get big is a personal thing (i'm not doing it for anyone else).
What would you do if you were in my position (had crappy little guy genetics and average test levels) and were offered the drugs?
I'm not trying to have a cry on this thread. It is a psychological issue i can't talk to anyone else about. They wont understand.
Over the last 18 months or so, I've been eating more than i ever could (close to 4000 cals) and focusing on lifting big. Doing PTC's beginner program... strength has gone up, but in size, i've only gained 3kg. Last couple of months I just plateau'd on strength and size. I feel horrible if I eat more calories; just find it hard to work as i get lot of stomach pain.
Meanwhile the maori dude in my gym seems to be doing a similar program and based on what he's told me, doesn't eat as much as me.. he's my height (5'9), slightly thicker bone structure, yet he's gained close to 10kg in the last year. I'd say it looks mostly lean (the gains).
That is just one scenario that has really made me upset. I know someone who can get me steroids. I'm really considering walking that path. The only two things stopping me is, 1. needles are not my friend 2. wanting to get big is a personal thing (i'm not doing it for anyone else).
What would you do if you were in my position (had crappy little guy genetics and average test levels) and were offered the drugs?