Kindred, even if you want one, wanting one is not going to magiacally make it happen. You first need to sort out the other aspects of your life to create a suitable environment which will lead to a successful relationship.
Some examples of facets in your life to get sorted and be routine are;
- work
- training
- grocery shopping/house work
- socialising with friends
- spending time with family
- team sports/activities
- hobbies
- etc
If your life is empty, initially when you meet a chick it'll go good for a few weeks but then she'll see how empty your life is, and she'll either get bored because your low status will become apparent or get sick of you smothering her in an overcompensating way to try and fill the void for everything else that's missing in your life, that is, if she's normal. If she's different/broken, then what you bring to the table may work/might be what she's looking for, depends on the girl.
Either way if you don't put yourself out there to meet new people you'll never meet someone. When it comes to chicks failing isn't losing the race it's not being in the race.