I'd reconsider whether my goal of being really big was actually for me. The truth is - it's not. It's a psychological crutch to make you feel good when you compare yourself to others.
Been there, done that and wasted the time.
There's always someone bigger stronger faster harder meaner or more dangerous.
When you come to grips with that and move on with your life the goals you achieve through your own accomplishments will be all you need.
BTW, if you lived in germany and good quality GH was legal, affordable and readily obtainable, a slightly different scenario emerges. But random expensive illegal bad quality or fake PED's are a waste, for a goal that is essentially a falsity.
And don't tell me you can definitely get good quality gear from a mate, and that he knows exactly what it is and where it's from. Or that when he gets done by the cops he won't roll over in an instant and tell them everyone he sells to.
Every. Single. Time.
Ive had it offered to me from numerous people. Gladly ive declined as I dont feel as I need it. Ive considered it of course but im all about the el natural.
If you insist on using it. Talk to GP on how to use it safely.
4000cal a day, i struggle with 3000 and im starting to notice the difference. Its not an easy task but I want what I want. And it doesnt matter how long it takes me.
alot of hate in this thread
I'd reconsider whether my goal of being really big was actually for me. The truth is - it's not. It's a psychological crutch to make you feel good when you compare yourself to others.
Been there, done that and wasted the time.
There's always someone bigger stronger faster harder meaner or more dangerous.
When you come to grips with that and move on with your life the goals you achieve through your own accomplishments will be all you need.
BTW, if you lived in germany and good quality GH was legal, affordable and readily obtainable, a slightly different scenario emerges. But random expensive illegal bad quality or fake PED's are a waste, for a goal that is essentially a falsity.
And don't tell me you can definitely get good quality gear from a mate, and that he knows exactly what it is and where it's from. Or that when he gets done by the cops he won't roll over in an instant and tell them everyone he sells to.
Every. Single. Time.
I'd like to request the admin does not close this thread.
I'm not trying to have a cry on this thread. It is a psychological issue i can't talk to anyone else about. They wont understand.
Over the last 18 months or so, I've been eating more than i ever could (close to 4000 cals) and focusing on lifting big. Doing PTC's beginner program... strength has gone up, but in size, i've only gained 3kg. Last couple of months I just plateau'd on strength and size. I feel horrible if I eat more calories; just find it hard to work as i get lot of stomach pain.
Meanwhile the maori dude in my gym seems to be doing a similar program and based on what he's told me, doesn't eat as much as me.. he's my height (5'9), slightly thicker bone structure, yet he's gained close to 10kg in the last year. I'd say it looks mostly lean (the gains).
That is just one scenario that has really made me upset. I know someone who can get me steroids. I'm really considering walking that path. The only two things stopping me is, 1. needles are not my friend 2. wanting to get big is a personal thing (i'm not doing it for anyone else).
What would you do if you were in my position (had crappy little guy genetics and average test levels) and were offered the drugs?
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